You are preparing your life. The higher authorities will give you chance. If you prepare yourself nicely, you get good chance; you get birth in higher planet. Or if you prepare himself . . . yourself nicely, then you go to Kṛṣṇa even. Now it is your choice. It is your choice. But we must know that, "What is my condition." If I am in darkness, I do not understand what is . . . in what condition I am living, this is conditional life. That's . . . everyone can understand. That Sanātana Gosvāmī understood. And we should follow the footprints of Sanātana Gosvāmī.
So he understood that "Although I am minister, although I am very educated . . ." Educated, what do you mean by educated? He said, grāmya-vyavahāre kahe paṇḍita (CC Madhya 20.100) "Some, my neighborers, they call me very learned man, my neighborers." Grāmya-vyavahāre kahe paṇḍita. Because he was minister, and he was Sanskrit scholar, Urdu scholar, actually, from scholastic point of view, he was a very educated . . . so he was born in brahmin family. So people used to . . . a brahmin family, a brahmin is addressed as paṇḍita. Paṇḍita. Paṇḍita means learned, because brahmin's business is to become learned.
So he was called "Panditji." But he was thinking that "People call me very learned man, but what sort of learned man I am?" So he submitted his defects to Caitanya Mahāprabhu that, grāmya-vyavahāre kahe paṇḍita, satya kori māni: "These people, my neighbors, they address me 'Panditji,' a learned man, and I am also such a fool that I accept that I am very much learned." "Why you disagree that you are not learned? You are learned." Now, he says that satya kori māni, āpanāra hitāhita kichui nā jāni: "I am so learned that I do not know what is my destination, what is good for me."