My Desire (Conversations)

Expressions researched:
"I shall desire" |"i desire" |"my ardent desire" |"my desire" |"my earnest desire" |"my final desire" |"my foremost desire" |"my great desire" |"my heart's desire" |"my only desire" |"my real desire" |"my serious desire" |"my ultimate desire" |"my urgent desire" |"our desire" |"our only desire" |"our sincere desire" |"we desire" |"we sincerely desire"

1973 Conversations and Morning Walks

Room Conversation with Banker -- September 21, 1973, Bombay:

I was rotting in my household life. That's all. But I was planning how to make, how to make this. That was my desire from the very beginning, since I heard it. But I was never with them, either this party or that party. And Guru Mahārāja also recommended, apnader tasturi tublia thaki bhavan. Takhona (?). "When there will be need, he will do himself. There is no need of living with you. It is better to live apart from you." When I was recommended by Goswami Mahārāja to live in the Maṭha, that "He is so nice." Sometimes he recommended. In Bombay, here in this Bombay. That house. Yes. He (Guru Mahārāja) said "Yes, he is very expert. He can do. So it is better to live apart from you. And he will do everything when there is need." He said. I could not understand. Although I was apart from them, a gṛhastha.