"By hearing process and by experimental knowledge, in both ways, I know that this human form of life is meant for engaging in the loving service of Rādhā and Kṛṣṇa, but I did not do that. That means purposefully I have drunk poison. I have committed suicide."
Prabhupāda: B-i-s-a. Khāinu, k-h-a-i-n-u.
- hari hari biphale janama goṅāinu
- manuṣya-janama pāiyā, rādhā-kṛṣṇa nā bhajiyā,
- jāniyā śuniyā biṣa khāinu
The meaning is, Hari Hari, "My Lord," biphale, "uselessly," janama, "life," goṅāinu, "spent up. I have uselessly spent up my life." Why? Because manuṣya-janama pāiyā, "I got this human form of life," manuṣya-janama pāiyā, rādhā-kṛṣṇa nā bhajiyā, "but I did not engage myself in the loving transcendental service of Rādhā and Kṛṣṇa." Rādhā-kṛṣṇa nā bhajiyā, jāniyā śuniyā biṣa khāinu: "Willingly, purposefully, I have drunk poison." Hari hari biphale, janama goṅāinu.
Pradyumna: Tell it for each word. Jāniyā means?
Prabhupāda: Jāniyā means knowingly, and śuniyā means hearing.
Pradyumna: Hearing?
Prabhupāda: Yes. Two kinds of knowledge are there. You can practically understand by experiment. This is called jāniyā. And another knowledge is by hearing from authoritative source. That is also knowledge. Jāniyā śuniyā "By hearing process and by experimental knowledge, in both ways, I know that this human form of life is meant for engaging in the loving service of Rādhā and Kṛṣṇa, but I did not do that. That means purposefully I have drunk poison. I have committed suicide."