Actually, devotional service rendered to the Supreme Lord not for my satisfaction—but rendering devotional service to the Lord, the self is automatically satisfied. If I make a motive that, "I shall render service to the Lord so that I will be very much satisfied . . ." No. No. That, that becomes motivated, that "I will be satisfied," that is the first consideration. There should be no motive at all. I may be satisfied, not sati . . . that is not my business. But still, I'll have to serve the Lord.
That is the teachings of Lord Caitanya. Āśliṣya vā pāda-ratāṁ pinaṣṭu mām marma-hatāṁ karotu vā (CC Antya 20.47). "Either You embrace or You trample me down or," marma-hatāṁ karotu vā, "make me brokenhearted," adarśanāt . . . every devotee aspires to see the Lord. That is natural. But Caitanya Mahāprabhu says that "It doesn't matter. Whether I see Kṛṣṇa or not, it doesn't matter. He may not be present before me for millions of years and make me brokenhearted."
If I aspire to see Kṛṣṇa, and Kṛṣṇa does not come, naturally I become sorry, brokenhearted. But even one is brokenhearted, still, he should not stop devotional service. Not that "I have served Kṛṣṇa for so many days, or so many years, and Kṛṣṇa did not come. Oh, what is the use of it?" No, not like that. One should be confident that . . .
Just like Mukunda. Mukunda, Lord Caitanya Mahāprabhu's class friend and devotee, so he was attending many jñānī, karmī, yogī . . . he was going everywhere. Caitanya Mahāprabhu became very much displeased, just to show example that we should not be hodgepodge: "This is also good, this is also good. Everything is same." No. This is hodgepodge. One must be fixed up in devotional service. That is wanted. So when Mukunda was going here and there, Caitanya Mahāprabhu gave him the name khaḍajāṭhiyā beṭā. So He stopped him, that "He should not come before Me. Stop him." So nobody can induce . . . Caitanya Mahāprabhu was very soft, kusumād api, softer than the flower, but harder than the thunderbolt. When He used to be very hard, then, then He become thunderbolt. Nobody can induce Him. But naturally, He is very soft-hearted.