It may be that I'm not fully Kṛṣṇa consciousness. That may be. Just like while eating it is not that immediately my hunger is satisfied or immediately I get my lost weakness. Takes little time. Similarly, Kṛṣṇa consciousness may be a gradual process of advancement, but this is the rule. If we are in Kṛṣṇa consciousness, there cannot be any existence of māyā, illusion. That is the test. If I am still in illusion, then I should understand that my business in Kṛṣṇa consciousness is not progressing. This is the test.
- 'kṛṣṇa, tomāra haṅa' yadi bale eka-bāra
- māyā-bandha haite kṛṣṇa tāre kare pāra
- (CC Madhya 22.33)
This is a very nice thing. Why Kṛṣṇa consciousness does not advance? Because due to our lack of surrender. We have got doubts, that "Whether Kṛṣṇa consciousness can make me actually advance?" We have got doubts. So long we have got doubts, the Kṛṣṇa consciousness is not progressing. We should clear all doubts. That is, you have got, everyone has got right to clear doubts. Clear doubts. If we think Kṛṣṇa as ordinary man, then there is doubt. Ordinary. Avajānanti māṁ mūḍha mānuṣīṁ tanum āśritam (BG 9.11). "Foolish persons, they think Me as ordinary man." But He's not. He's God. We should not be, I mean to say, detached from Kṛṣṇa because He's sitting on the lap of Yaśodā. Still He's Kṛṣṇa. There are instances. Therefore we have to hear about Kṛṣṇa. Kṛṣṇa, when He was only three months old, oh, very beautiful child . . . as beautiful child, He's taken care of (by) other ladies and girls. Oh, it is very nice.
So Pūtanā, a demonic, she, in the dress of a very nice girl, approached Yaśodāmayī, and she had the desire . . . because she was the agent of Kaṁsa. Kaṁsa was searching out to kill Kṛṣṇa. So she came with poison in her breast so that she'll take the child, and naturally, the child, they suck breast of ladies. And as soon as Kṛṣṇa will suck the breast, and there is poison, it will die. That was his plan.
Now Yaśodāmayī, she's very innocent lady. She came, "Oh, Yaśodā, you have got very nice child. Will you kindly give in my lap?" "Yes, yes. Why not? Take." And she at once put the child on the breast, and Kṛṣṇa sucked. Kṛṣṇa sucked the poison and Kṛṣṇa sucked the life also. At once the demon fell, a gigantic body, and there was . . ."Oh, how He is powerful." So you see's. He's all-powerful there in the lap of His mother. Yaśodāmayī thought, "Oh! God has saved my child! This demonic, they came to cheat me." Yaśodāmayī does not know that here is God on her lap.
This is another māyā. This is called yogamāyā. If Yaśodāmayī understands He is God, then he (she) cannot, I mean to say, bring up the child just like her own child, ordinary child. Therefore she must be in ignorance, that she . . . because there is the connection of love only. That's all. So out of love, as somebody forgets what he is or she is, similarly Yaśodāmayī, constantly seeing so many wonderful things played by Kṛṣṇa, still she is thinking, "Oh, He is my child. These things are happening by some supernatural power. It is God's grace. It is God's grace that my child is saved." She is simply anxious to save her child. That's all.